Aleph !

11th read of Paulo. This one is more on making peace with your past . He goes through a soul searching mode once again by travelling through the Trans Siberian railway (9288 Kms)--Moscow to Vladivostok. I improved knowledge on Russian cities as well :). I found it not as captivating as the earlier ones but still holds on the interest.

Some quotes from the book which attracted my attention:
- There are lot of people who care about others and are extremely generous when it comes to GIVING and who feel real pleasure when someone asks them for advice or help. On the other hand very few people are capable of RECEIVING, even when the gift is given with love and generosity. Its as if the act of receiving made them feel inferior, as if depending on someone else were undignified. They think: if someone is giving something that's because we are incapable of getting it ourselves. Or else: The person giving me this now will one day ask for it back with interest. Or even worse: I don't deserve to be treated well.
- Anyone who knows GOD cannot describe him, anyone who can describe GOD does not know him

-Controlling your aggression in order not to harm other is Path to Peace

-The most sophisticated things in the world are precisely those within the reach of everyone

- Is it possible to avoid pain? Yes, but you will never learn anything

-Is it possible to know something without ever having experienced it? Yes, but it will never truly be part of you.

- Sometimes you have to travel a long way in order to find what is near.

Who am I?

who am i?
a lonely warrior
or a commander of a battalion
i am confused, I am restless
i am searching the meaning of my existence

Does this happen to all i wonder?
but then one usually wont share such things in general
we shy away from making some deep analysis
as we fear it might tear away our modern curricular

life is a journey they say
how to make that journey memorable is what i debate?
we are always vying for that next material achievement
we surely are making progress
but are we losing sanity in the process
how do i stay on the course
difficult to decide where is the balance to attain the smile of a monk

I have a wish to spend a month in a monastery
to see how to live life peacefully
may be that will teach me some lessons
or I will return with same aspiration

Children are referred to as full of life
but as you grow you are always quoted on occasions "don't behave like children"
a set of rules every society imposes
and very few get to the tendency of a maverick
People will always have issues with the rules
as every person will have a different viewpoint of how to live

Do you hear anyone praise " He lived a common man's life"
because there is a derogatory remark associated in that style
perhaps common man is looked upon as under achiever and easily overpowered
maybe its to do with the history of our nation

Belief that You need to be better from others in order to be recognized
drives us crazy all our life
we do things more for recognition than following our own talent
we are put into competition right from childhood
and perhaps we compete till the time of our end

when will we respect the individuality of every other human being?
that each person is unique in his/ her own way
I wish we live to see that day
When we wont need any religion / any yoga
this common sense is enough to have peaceful junta !

I feel lost at times in the current times
as i fail to make meaning out of this life
Search is on to find a solution
Hope I find an answer.......

Desperation

Desperation
sometimes it comes from not meeting the loved one
other times it comes from job

there is no sense of direction you are heading to
and you wonder what exactly are you fit for

at times you take it lightly as a phase which will pass soon
at other times it gives you sleepless nights


you try to judge what is right and what is wrong
but then others will always have a view of their own

some things can be deducted logically
at other times astro/ star play their role
we take it for our convenience which tool to use at what time
end objective being what we wish for gets fulfilled in someway

Sometimes life is full of joy
and at others it shows dearth of same
scriptures say it all depends on how you relate to the world
need conscious effort to get in that state of continuous bliss

You try to find the fitness for work you like
but then doubt creeps in how long that liking would sustain
if it comes in too easy it does not hold value
if it is too difficult you think of giving it up at start

Desperation may be good
to make us elevate from the current state to next level
but can same be done without getting into this mode
perhaps spiritual gurus hold key to that

Wonder with 5% brain being used we feel such state of desperation at times
Wonder what it will be like when we start using 95% of it......