काबिल

हम किसी के काबिल नहीं ये हमें है मालूम

खुद तो बेहतर बनाने में लगे सारा जोर

किसी और के लिए नहीं करना चाहता

खुद से जो आंखें मिला के देख सके यही है जीवन का मूल

Bhai Behen milap

 

खूब जमा रंग

जब मिल बैठे हम सब भाई बहन एक साथ

अपने जीवन की कश्तियों पे सवार

ढूंढ लिया एक ठहराव इस मुलाकात के साथ

 

शब्दों मे बयान करना इसे मुश्किल है यारो

इसे तो दिल मे उतर कर ही जाना जाता है

भाई बहन के इस संगठन को

फिर सालो याद किया जाता है

 

ठहाको की पुहार

बचपन की वो हसीं यादों की कतार

न किसी की बंदिश, न किसी की रोक

फिर से अपने आप से रूबरू होने का खुमार

 

दिल मे खुशियों की फुहार

जो सता रहा अंदर उसे बोल के ठंडा कर लिया यार

किसी समाधान का ना इंतज़ार

थोड़ा जी लिया सभी ने अपने दिल को हल्का करके मेरे यार

 

जीवन बहुत कुछ सिखाता है

एक बैचलर को भी अपने बिल्ली की सेवा बच्चे जैसे करता है

जहाँ तुम्हारे आने पे हो सभी के चेहरे पे मुस्कराहट की लहर

मान लो फिर अनजाने शहर मे मिल गया तुम्हे अपना एक हसीं घर

 

दोस्तों का नज़ारा बड़ा ही नायाब

हर एक लग गया मेहमानों की सेवा मे यार

कोई बनाए पकवान, कोई लाए दारू , तो कोई लाये आधी रात को एयरपोर्ट से जनाब

न कोई उफ़ न आह

ऐसा लगे ये तो परिवार वाला ही है अपना

 

जिस जगह पर हो हर एक का आदर और सत्कार

जहाँ मौशी बनाये रोज खाना अपरम्पार

सभी के चेहरे पे एक धीमी सी मुस्कराहट

बस यही तो है एक सुखी जीवन की बनावट

 

तो करते रहें हम युहीं सालो साल भाई बहन मिलन

ज़िन्दगी कट जायेगी फिर हसीं यादों के संग :)

Solitude !

 

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Solitude !

I want to go far away

Where I could be free of bonding's and worries

And just be self for a while

Seems a bit selfish

Maybe I am an odd kind

Some may say running away

And some would think I needed a break

But how does it help one in his choice

If one keeps thinking of what others will say all time

Those who are close will understand

Those not will not matter most

Solitude is needed 

Especially for those with realm of relationships and bonding's to carry along with them 

It's easy being alone

But it's needed most when you have settled in along 

Energies revived 

And you get back to life 

Explaining takes time

And judgements are made left and right

I wonder what I am here for

To do with the daily grinds of a stoic lifestyle

The spark needs ignition

And lays dormant in this existential trap

I need to venture out on my own

To bring my genuine self back to life 

Leave behind what burden I carry for a while

Be a butterfly exploring realms of nature in the limited life

So need to go out with my poison of choice

Solitude gives me reasons to rejuvenate this life !!

Manmarziyan (Wishes)

Life is a journey

made sweet with your honey

its all a gamble

you are never sure you have met a bee or a butterfly

what you can do best is to be yourself

and wait if a bee comes back or a butterfly

what seems dear now may turn sour

and what seems sour now may turn dear

its all a game of luck and patience

you never know with which one would you would be stuck

so count your blessings and take step

as standing idle leads to misunderstanding

whatever you may wish to do

do it with open heart

so when you look back at your past

you dont have regret of not listening to your heart

there is no guarantee of success

nor there is absolute failure

but you would be satisfied with the outcome

as you abided by your heart to take that next step

if it feels funny in the gut

you are sure you are making a choice to your best

who knows whats in the future

you may be a dud or a jackpot winner

but nothing is stable even if you win it

you need to nurture to keep the feelings you have won

else it withers away like the pace of a tortoise

you would not know when you were left behind

so cherish the wins what you have

and love will find its way to your path

You would cherish it more

as you would attract butterflies a lot more

dont hate the bees 

as they would have taught you what to leave

Heart is fickle and mind is sturdy 

the combination of both will make life worth living :)

Crying(draft)

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 Crying (Draft)

 

The first act
garnering immediate attention after being pat on the back

 

This is first thing doctor checks to see if we are alive
and then it sticks with us throughout life

 

We seem to be genetically wired for it
Adept from start without needing any training for it

 

The newborn/toddler gets all his/her work done
just by mastering this art and playing it again and again

 

Over the years the reasons change
from being hungry for food to plethora of reasons depending on age

 

I wonder what is the reason of crying
perhaps to seek attention or let go off pent up tension
its an admiration of realizing what we have or agony for what we seek to have

 

Children cry to get what they want
Crying out aloud on those they are around

 

They muscle their way by hook or crook
and most parents give up to keep them hooked

 

Adolescents cry in chase of their dreams
sulking up tears to strengthen the resolve within

 

What will you become is a big question ?
with plethora of marketing telling you this is your chosen destination

 

Young adults cry for love and friendship
as they realize they need to pay attention

 

for those in love not reciprocated
crying is an outlet for the void left by this realization

 

for those in love reciprocated
crying is an outlet to signal how badly they needed this attention

 

Married couples cry out of feeling neglected/ cheated
while those not married cry in search of not finding what they expected

 

Midlife folks cry for the bygone years
chasing target after target as life passed by and they lost there prime years

 

Those reaching retirement from work cry thinking what they will do next
as that's the life they lived day in and out without realizing someday it will come to an end

 

Those in retirement cry on feeling neglected / express their feeling again
Perhaps that's how the circle of life has played the game

 

Those who breathe their last
leave out lot of folks crying behind their back

 

Female seem to indulge more freely in this exercise
while males have hard time figuring out how does one cry

 

Watching an emotional film/ tv series brings out this held up emotion
and you wonder what struck as you watch in silence tears tricking down your eyes

 

Crying to some comes with ease and the moment they feel little hurt
while crying to some is an act they seldom perform in life

 

Is crying a negative or positive emotion ?
put me thinking it depends on the situation

 

Crying from seeing someone you admire/love after long on one end and 
Crying in despair by feeling left all alone when someone left you whom you called soulmate on other end

 

Crying helps you keep sane
do practice it even if you feel shame

Waiting in Queue

So busy with our lives

We seldom get time to unwind

Standing in queue is one such occasion

You wonder how long it will take to get the attention

Reached passport office well ahead in time

But security guard halted the fast ride

Only allowed as per your time

With no convenience to rest while you wait outside

No concern on the age of those waiting

Everyone has to stand till the gates open as per their time

Kids, olders all alike , standing in line

And you wonder can't this be better organized 

There is one queue to get inside

Followed by other queue to wait for your turn at the counter

There is some respite after entering inside

You see some chairs for those needing to rest out while waiting in line

You imagined tatkal would be fast

But with one counter everyone got aghast

Random strangers striking a conversation

Because their kids happen to be at the same junction

You wonder how come is it the case ? 

One has chocolate and other whining she wants the same 

Parents exchanging notes on parenting 

Passing time while waiting

Kids being told to be nice and share

And they ask what I would get in return for my share 

Some kids mingle and enjoy

While adults is hurry start acting like child

Who was ahead and who was behind 

Becomes the trending topic for the rest in line

You wonder though the physical queue will end

The queue constructed in mind will keep piling up in your head

Scores of things to do 

never relishing enough with what you do

Always something to improve or add further on

and the saga goes on.......

What is Love ?

What is love ?

Is it something to be flaunted
or something to be revered

Is it the hormonal rush
or the one which brings calm

Is it expressed through materialism
or is it richness of feelings

Is it one which always bring you high
or is it the ride of a tide... sometimes highs, other times dives

Is it a sexual act
or one which exuberates the mind

Is it time bound
or is it infinite

Is it monogamous
or is it polygamous

Is it about spending time
or is it about feeling wow !

Is it a happy continuum 

or is it chain of sacrifice

Is it bounded by societal norms 

or is it free spirit expressing itself head on

Is it gender bound

or is it beyond

Is it limited to humans
or is it ubiquitous throughout